The bottom line is that I love them. And I loved them so much and that's why this hurts to this day. Because I loved them so much but they didn't love me at all. It hurts. They didn't care one bit about me. And all I did was take care of them because I loved them. It hurts. They don't love, they are hateful. Their actions were hateful and it hurts when you love someone and show them that by caring from them and they turn around and spit hatred all over you. It hurts. I think it will always hurt.